15 Minutes Of Reality

what demented fuck brainwashed the world into embracing the lunacy of reality tv...are people so bored that they will watch anything, no matter how sad, tasteless and demeaning...worse yet, why are so many willing to subject themselves to public humiliation, for some supposed chance at becoming famous, risking almost certain infamy and ridicule

i know it isn't really new...springer, and his ilk have been around for years...i can't even imagine what prompts a person to desire appearing on springer....why would you willingly get on national (hell worldwide) tv and air your dirty laundry...how do you go out in public after revealing that you have been sleeping with your husband's brothers, best friends and mother...and if springer calls you and asks you to appear, no matter what they tell you the reason, risk learning that you are the last person in the world to know you've been cheated on, lied to or whatever...ugh, it is so fucking sad that people do that

now we have much worse it seems...put yourself through physical and mental torture, give up your dignity and privacy, for some elusive prize...let millions of people watch your humiliation, become the topic of endless gossip, maybe even become the latest victim of the smoking gun...it's a crock of shit, the worst type of lies disguised as yet one more type of success that is truly worthless

bad enough that they teach that money, looks, and material possessions are how you measure up...appearance over substance, having things rather than being happy...now they teach that lying, cheating, using and betraying is not only ok, but good, when trying for the ultimate goal of success and fame...no wonder the world is so totally fucked up

what happened to morals, responsibility, and self-esteem...what will it take to remind people that the one person you have to live with is yourself....the person that you can never really lie to, and actually knows if you are happy or just faking , is yourself....and when will people understand that unless they are honest with themselves, and be themselves, will never be happy, will never have succeeded, and are totally to blame for their inner misery...and dammit, when will people finally stop thinking that making someone else miserable will fill that big hole inside them....IT WON'T...there is no excuse, no justification, that changes the fact that you are responsible for your life, your happiness, or misery, and no matter what was done to you, you choose who you are and what you do

i was mentally abused by my dad, i chose not to abuse my daughter....i have been cheated on, and lied to by my ex-wives, ex-girlfriends and by some of my closest friends, but i choose to not do these things, and i choose to still trust a person until they prove unworthy of trust...i chose to not let bad things in my past destroy my present and future happiness...i chose not to assume that a few individuals are a fair repesentation of an entire group

fuck it...i never want to become them...i refuse to leet them win, by changing who i am...i know i will fuck up, i will get hurt, and i am afraid of doing so, but i will never let that fear stop me from risking, trying, living...BUT, i will never risk these things for fame, to measure up to some arbitrary standard, or to provide a vicarious life to a bunch of cowards to scared to risk living their own dreams

Posted by Angstman at July 9, 2003 07:41 AM | TrackBack