Relief Via Completion

what a relief to finally finish a new piece, esp one that i have been trying to complete for months...these last few months have been frustrating in so many ways...having to devote so much of my time and myself to getting myself and my g/f through the trauma of selling her ranch...and then having several graphics that i can visualize the completed lokk as clear as day, and having no clue how to get it there....just fumbling about and frustrating myself totally which only made dealing with everything else harder...times like these last few months i wish that every person in my life that proved their total lack of comprehehsion of how difficult being bipolar makes life by uttering any one of the hundreds of things people tell you thinking it helps when at best they only annoy and often increase those lovely feelings of being about 1/2 step out of synch with the rest of the world...sometimes i am amazed that the suicide rate for bipolar people is only %25...seems like it should be around %50 or more...i know a large reason i am still walking around is the i am not into following trends...i almost never like in any way or have an urge to participate in popular or hot things....fuck, maybe i am really out of synch with the rest of the world

TANSTAAFL