Struggling To Find My Center

i don't know what has happened to me over the last few weeks...somewhere in that timespan, i have slipped into some truly weird mental state...it is not a depressive cycle, though it bears some of it's characteristics...whatever it is it has totally robbed me of my normal sense of self...i feel like i am drifting along, unbalanced and no clue how to get back....i feel like i lost my sense of humor, and worse the certainty that there is balance in life, which is one of the foundations i depend on to get through day to day life...it has encroached into all my creative outlets, which is the most frustrating thing....i have almost totally lost my ability (what little i had) to write the way i want...there is no flow at all and i've let myself get mired in ugly mental dialogue...the worst of all is i am in the midst of this huge creative block, and can't create a fucking thing graphicwise.

not one attempt lately, be it art, graphics, or even simple photo work is going right...every single thing i have tried working with is looking like shit, even something as basic as converting the colors of the rating image....i hope i find my way out of here soon, and get back to a more normal (for me) place...i miss the creative release and need to get these outlets working again...maybe i will try sleeping for 3 or 4 days straight, or not sleeping for a week...maybe that will break this damn state....who knows...i guess only time will tell